Sometimes I do wonder "Who am I living for?" Never ending housework to do. Start of every month, I have to do my dad's accounts. I have my fair share of priorities. But it seems like I don't have adequate time for myself. I need to study too. I am also working. I do feel stressed having to juggle so many things. I know women are good at multi-tasking and wearing many hats at different point of time. However, this is too much for me to handle with only 24 hours daily! I feel so suffocated. Count your blessings if you do not have to many responsibilities.
Tomorrow, I will have 2 grandmaSS living under the same roof. I can't imagine what will happen at home or me. Other than having a great bf, I felt the other aspects of my life are in a total mess.
Recently, one of my finance colleagues left our company for a better offer. Company freeze head count so her work load was divided among the 2 of us. The past 1 month was my busiest period in office. On certain period, I was so busy that I find it hard to breathe. I have deadlines to meet every week. Boss keeps msn-ing me asking me for recon. Hello! Payments are more important or your supplier recon? Vendors will call and chase me for payments and not bug you for supplier reconciliations. Please weigh the priorities before asking me for recon. If Japan headquarters need it, recon it yourself.
Wage freeze too thus can't bargain for higher pay when I am doing so much more than when I first joined the company. I want to finish my studies asap and look out for better jobs. Pathetic pay with tremendous things to do. How can I save money with my take home salary? I remember the first time when I got my salary, I gave my parents each $150. My mom said "Huh. You give us so little arh." Haiz... I really don't understand why nothing nice comes out of my mom's mouth.
People can pass their exams smoothly but why can't I? The decision to take up ACCA is utterly wrong. I regretted it. But I am already halfway through this and there is no way and too late for me to turn back. I just have to continue this path and hope it will reap me with good jobs in future. When people know what cert I am taking, they will go "WOW, it is not easy" or "WOW, it is a very recognised certificate." So what if ACCA is widely recognised? I don't give a damn especially when so many people are taking it even old and uncivilised aunties. It is just a matter of time graduating with an ACCA certificate.
I thought of what THAT EX-CLASSMATE COMMENTED ABOUT ME 2 years ago. I still remember that whole sentence. I still feel indignant about it. The thought of that sentence still makes me furious. I hope that you will keep failing your ACCA exams and never graduate. Let this be my birthday greetings to you every year.
You can say that I am childish, immature or vengeful. I don't care. For this case, I will not forgive neither will I forget.
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